If You Deceive !!

It was getting late enough to be worried. I once again stepped into the balcony and looked down. Except for a drenched street dog that was lying down miserably near the gate, there was not a soul to be seen anywhere. Rain water had puddled under the lamp post. A breeze ruffled the mango tree in the courtyard and a few twigs fell down and broke. Thunder rumbled in the distance. Did I hear a soft knock at the door. I turned back to open the door. I encountered two strangers who looked at me and asked if I am Mrs Ahuja. I shook my head in affirmation. One of them introduced him as the local police officer. My heart sank & there were thousands of thoughts which crossed my mind in that point of time. The other person understood it and asked me about my husband. I told him that he went out for a walk and hasn't come back yet. And I was waiting for him only. He said that he wanted to tell me something about my husband and asked me to follow them to their jeep. I did as instructed. I was trying to gather some courage to ask them if everything was alright. But I couldn't or may be I was not ready for the truth. They both spoke nothing after that. I could only feel that awkward silence and the dark night while I was looking out of the window. As soon as we reached the police station, we entered this dark room where all I could see were some stretcher. Then I saw one with a dead body lying on it, which was covered by a white sheet. I felt horrified when I looked at one of the officer standing there. He asked me to identify the body. My legs were shaking as i tried to walk down to the body. I removed the sheet. What !! No this couldn't be you. I looked at you again but only to see what i was not prepared for. It was you my love. I couldn't feel anything. There was no one to understand the grief i was going through. All I could do was to shed tears and weep. I don't even remember when I passed out that night.

They say "Time heals all the wounds". Life goes on and I had to make peace with it. Its been six years now and while on the way to my daughter's school, I found myself in the middle of these thoughts. I looked at the mirror and it felt like it just said- you are alright. I smiled again. I have reached the school gate. All I can see are those happy kids coming out of the school gate and their parents waiting outside for them. In the middle of this crowd I see my daughter with that perfect smile while she looks at me always. She came to me running. I try to take her bag but she is playful even now. She starts running backwards. And looking at this cute smile I cant even scold her. All I can do is to fake it and get angry. Finally I manage to take her to car. She is always so restless. Whenever I look at her I feel how am I so fortunate to have this little bundle of joy in my life.

As I enter home I see Sid sitting and waiting for us. Riya goes running and hugs him. I know they both can talk and play with each other for hours. And before they start this I have to be tough and tell Riya to go and change. She does listen to me but with this sad expression on her face. As she goes back to her room. I look at him. Our eyes met. Every time I look at him I feel the same connect which was there years back. He took me to the room. He holds my hand. He kisses on my neck and we make love. As we always do with the same passion.We both are lying on our bed and I am just thinking about the day we met for the first time. How I fell in love the very first time I saw you. Every time I came out of my ex- husband's house to meet you. The time reminds me of all the fights I had with him because of you. And then was the day when he found out both in the bedroom as he came early from his office. It changed everything between me and him. All we would do is to fight with each other for the same reason. I started hating him, I needed divorce. I talked to my husband about our separation. But all he had to say was there will be no matrimonial alimony if we get divorced. I had no option but to leave him, because I loved Sid so much. In between these events comes a great news that I was pregnant. I told my ex husband that I was pregnant. He looked sad more than anything after listening to this news.He got this thought in his mind that it's not his baby. And which was right. I was expecting Sid's child. And we both were really happy about it.

I was going through this bad times while I was pregnant. All he would do is to fight with me every day. There came the saturation point when I discussed this with my boyfriend Sid. And he came up with this plan to murder him. I did not have think twice and I said yes to his plan. I told him the exact time when he goes for the walk. All we had to do was to kill him. We hired a bus driver and gave him a good amount for this work. He did everything as planned. And today is the day when no one knows whether it was an accident or a planned murder. But we lived happily after. Me and Siddharth are really happy together. And this is how it was meant to be like.

I looked at Sid who slept by now and kissed him again. I went out to see if Riya has completed her homework....