New Year's Resolution

It is a fresh morning with soothing fresh air blowing, birds are chirping and the darkness is bygone with the advent of the fresh glistering sunshine. Nature has dressed up itself with beautiful colors and flowers. The air is filled with a serene fragrance. When I, a 25 years old boy, stand in the balcony to enjoy the immense beauty of this mind-blowing winter morning, cool air is whispering in my ears that love is in the air. The dense fog is just about to fade away and fresh sunshine is filling the environment. The morning is just fascinating. It seems that Mother Nature is chanting a rhythmic hymn. With the sweet song of the birds, the fact suddenly comes to my mind that today is 26th December 2019. The year 2019 is just about to bid all of us Good Bye and not many days are left for the advent of the wonderful exciting new year 2020. As the year 2019 comes to its end and a fresh year 2020 is just about to start, it is the time to analyze the old year and make some new steady resolutions. By the grace of the never-failing supreme Higher Power, the year has passed well. Some new exciting relationships have been built, there have been some bosom friends who truly glorify the word friendship. With them, I can share many intimate things and stories of my life, and the warmth of their sweet and honest company, wonderful joyfulness, and camaraderie keep me warm and relaxed inside. They stand beside me through the thick and thin of my life and their loving and burning words endow my soul with a miraculous strength. They truly heighten my joys,lighten my sorrows, brighten my life all the time. They are just wonderful and for me, they are 'God's Gift'. I am thankful to God to have them in my life. In the upcoming year 2019 also, I would like to feel comfortable in their warm company and to do something good for them too as that to help to increase the intimacy in our relationship. It is time to enjoy the new year in the warmth of their exemplary friendship.

In the year 2019, I have also fallen in love. To find somebody in life who is really loving and caring, with whom I can share the closest secrets of my life, who make me learn the value of love and the wordless language of empathy, is really a priceless moment of the life. The infatuation is fascinating and the thrill of exploring intimacy is overwhelming. She is a special person in my life. But in the passing 2018, due to fear and close-mindedness, I lacked the true courage to confess my love. But in this upcoming new year, I seriously want to confess my deepest feelings to her and listen to her reply. If she agrees, surely it will be the best moment for me but if she rejects my proposal, I will not break down or become angry with her. I have vowed to love her, respect her feelings and likings, with the good in her life always.

This year I have learned the true value of honesty, truthfulness, sincerity, love, compassion, trust, faith, humility and I want to apply these wonderful principles in my life to my best ability. Then I can call myself a real man who can rejoice in helping others and find solace and contentment in the betterment of others. And to accomplish this work, I have to free myself of the chronic self-centeredness and old thoughts that are stinking. I have to stretch my arms in the golden sunshine of love, compassion, and fresh new creative thoughts, ideas, and actions.

My late Grand Pa who died in 2017, had once told me there are three parts of 'Self'- higher part, middle part, and lower part. The higher part is filled with pure wisdom and it is that what God intends a man to be. The higher part of self is all about wisdom, serenity, sagacity, hope, compassion, honesty, trust, open-mindedness, and purity. This is part of pure love and pure light. I pray earnestly to God that in the upcoming year of 2020, I have to identify my Higher Part of Self and show it to the world. Then I can truly call me a creative person. I want nothing but to be a real servant of God.

My late Grand Pa had also taught me that if I can know myself, I will be able to explore the fascinating horizons of infinite possibilities with my limitless creative potentials. If you can truly identify yourself as the son of Father, your potential will be limitless and to its fullest. Then I will be out of the dark cave of false desires, lusts and cravings which have covered my life for so long as dense clusters of dark clouds and fresh sunshine will fall on me. I can stretch my hands in the fresh sunshine with cool air kissing my cheeks.

I know that materialistic success, joy, and pleasure are not everlasting. Sometimes, the pains of failures or losing someone loving can be overwhelming. But I know if I can be punctual and true to my ethics and principles, failures are just temporary setbacks rather than a link in an unbreakable chain. God won't let me stay in the sunlight for long, but he will definitely help me if I choose to stay in the twilight. When joy, happiness, and contentment are spiritual, they are eternal too.

So it's not very intricate. I just have to release the old, embrace the new, and make life to its fullest.

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