The Alone Girl

When the class was over, the shouting would start as soon as the teacher left. Of course it's college. Soumi is a first year Economics Honours student. She would sit quietly with her face buried in a book. Friends often complain, "why don't you like to talk too much?" and "I feel very bad seeing you" she does not understand what is causing them such a headache. She is angry but he thinks that they are very good. He can no longer quarrel with everyone. She used to read story books in the library all the time, he would get very angry if someone wanted to tell a story in the library, he would avoid it. Sometimes she feels that her friends don't care about her. She used to make notes in class so that he could go home and do the rest of his studies. Sometimes Diwali would pull her best friend, Khata, "What do you read so much?" Soumy said, "Ugh, don't get angry." Even if no one understands Soumi, this girl understands. Diwali, "Ah, why are you angry?" I have told Kaushik that I will take it from him. Soumi smiles, "Are you in love with Kaushik again or even after separation?" Diwali, "Damn no, he seems to be hitting you with a line". Soumi, "What are you talking nonsense, Omni, you are putting it on my neck." Diwali, "Oh no, just saying your name agreed to give the notes". Soumi, "Did you see much in it?" He thought it was their nature to exaggerate a little thing. And he knows that if Diwali does not enter the head of a difficult equation, he gets busy with these love words. Soumy, however, thought that she would remain single for the rest of her life. Went to the canteen to get some refreshment.

After going to the college on Friday, two friends who were supposed to come suddenly announced that they would not be able to come. He feels very alone. The mind gets upset. He was walking absentmindedly when suddenly someone pulled him into a room where the contest was going on. Go and ask a few others to come out by name if they can come or not. He sat in the union room for a while and then slowly went to class. Found some, sat with them. There was a bit of laughter, joking, there was a gap of two hours after the end of a class, as usual I thought I would go to the library and read books, but I was chatting in the union again, someone came and took me to finish the final work of the contest. I thought it would be good and the time will pass. A madam told why and how to complete the registration. A girl ran, pushed and stood next to him. He initially spoke well of me but later complained to that madam. That girl wanted her job done somehow. Soumi could not bear the girl's teasing her in various ways and was forced to come out. He cannot fill the form at all. Later some of us went out to eat at a nice place. After a long time, it was great to visit again. I did not understand how the time passed. Watched two Korean dramas.

The seniors came to the class and told those who wanted to participate in the spring festival to go to the union room and give their names. I was wondering whether to participate in dance or music. Discussed with friends. The next day when he went to the college, his first task was to come with the name, after the task was done, he went out to the class, that day he got to know from the rest who was there and what time was the practice. The resale will start from one-thirty the next day. As per the word, everyone hastily finished the tiffin and entered the room next to the union with the bag. He was a little late, he entered and saw many people sitting with tabla, flute and shell. He also went and sat. Discussions began about what songs were to be fixed. The boy playing tabla checked everyone's voice. He was a little nervous when it was his turn, but he listened as best he could. After that, it was decided that the resale would end with a little delay from the next day. Next morning some people come, one of them recites a beautiful poem, she is same year of chemistry department. And there were only five days left. They have to finalize the songs, they wrote down some folk songs and looked at the lyrics one by one, and started fixing. The one who was supposed to play tabla, Soumi liked him. Again during the recess while looking at one side, a friend suddenly asked, "Ki re ko kon kali man tor". I saw him standing and talking to someone, thinking he would go and talk but thinking that it is not right to do that, he went to the class and left the bag to resell. It was five o'clock in the afternoon that day. He thought about whether to go and talk to himself, but the little talk kept happening. He used to talk only with his classmates. She is a bit of an introvert, tries to be an extrovert but takes a while to open up on her own. The next day was the resale but the boy didn't come, he didn't care, Wednesday was a bit like his mind. The granddads of the union have to perform the final stage on that day. Went to the canteen to relax a bit. He was very tense. Everyone was asked to leave the stage quickly. Flute, harmonium, khol, tabla, nupur all the instruments were taken and arranged in order. The dance performance was next. Everything was very beautiful, when they finished they also did the final stage performance. Sometimes Diwali came to inquire about him. That day, the boy was first spoken to by the side of the stage, as there were many discussions, he was listening. He developed a fondness for her. There is happiness in living a lie without knowing the truth. It is a bit difficult to have everything as you like. He dares to love her once again, forgetting the old things. High hopes lead to great suffering. It was a living thing ner time. Then everyone goes home. Told his best friend about it. On the day of Dol Utsav or in the college, there will be no play of colors, it was said by everyone, it was not to be accepted. But he thought it was a rumour. Day, date all in his voice. Getting ready early in the morning, getting dressed and driving out, the song has brought a new festive joy to his heart and shown the direction of light, it may be a momentary attraction. The spring colored the mind in the heart. Another morning of those cloudy blue-yellows. Relationships built with new people, bright lights in the city sky and puja conch sounds. No one came to see their singing group. Meet girls from other departments. All the dancers were getting ready very early. When everyone arrived, they got busy taking photos and making reels. Repeatedly inside and out. Nothing was eaten that day. It starts with a welcome dance, followed by some competition between them. Had to stand all day. He was not bored at all, but he was very happy. He was going and talking in circles, walking around. That day he repeatedly went and talked to him. That buzz with friends, mingling in color with a cheeky smile between them. Open your soul and recognize your happiness. The boy said he would have some lunch and be back in time with his friends. Meanwhile, the time for the last performer approaches. Soumi calls and informs. When their song ends, they dance to the song of Radhakrishna with great fanfare, the mind is filled. Before the program ended, the Holi song started and the game of colors was announced. I was finding a way out of the crowd together, today swayed him, there was love then. No one had painted Soumi yet, her joy knew no bounds. He goes to his friends, doesn't find many, there are colors all around and everyone dances in the college premises, he doesn't eat anything that day and his body becomes very bad.

It's his turn to be proud of himself, he's learned to surround himself with people, and he doesn't want to be stigmatized by them. But today everything is over, he knows how to be good at work, he has learned to be busy and forget. Tired of fighting with myself today, dreams of becoming bigger in life, moving forward little by little on the way to fulfillment, but if that man understands

Everything can be happy. If his love changes to love

She doesn't know what to do, if she says I love someone else. Girl, "If you could tell me once, I would have gone far, far away, I didn't want to hurt you, I had forgotten about myself, then I would have thought about it many times.

Does love really happen". The girl does not cry for the person she loves, she cries again because love pushed her away. From the beloved day, some arranged memories are erased,

The mind spreads like broken glass, spring makes it alone again, makes something empty,

Only the work remains and the rest fades away. He too will walk in the touch of the wind, with another story of the crowd, today turned to stone for no reason, learned to understand people properly,

There is a break in love, it is normal to create distance even if you talk, he did not want to be the partner of a small friendship, today the tears have dried up.

Suppressing pain makes wounds, can't forget that first swing, even the red color is a lie today, couldn't understand whether it was good or bad.

Knowing him has lost the ability to keep faith, some people come and go, the game of knowing and unknown that ends in swing, today he has shown his selfishness, he has tried to avoid him in various ways, he has made it clear that he cannot be seen, the need to keep the memories alive is over, Confined to his own boundaries, he explained that he could not disturb a stranger. Not exactly bothered by its use

However, I could not keep away the pride, even today, those days, my mind did not let go

They have hope, one day they will meet again, they want to remain friends, their faith is their hope today, it is very difficult to forget. Yet the effort did not fail, speaking by another name when in the list of habits, however busy he explained, making himself difficult, a new path to his silence, the injury created a crack. When the scale of anger is heavy, long neglect to believe, walking alone on the lonely road, today is beyond all limits. He didn't want the mask of a good person to remain, his qualifications have run out today, the colorful day is fading, maybe everything can't be said, what's in it would be lost, who didn't understand the meaning of a little friendship. He just gave the excuse of being unknown, wanted to go away and be separated again and again. I will never bother him unnecessarily. That desire, courage is broken

The questions themselves answered me,

Speaking remains in short supply

He told himself to stop meeting

He didn't overcomplicate what was left, he wouldn't have been told, many thought if pushed away. Someone new will come in life, he doesn't want to hear this consolation, there is God, it is enough to live alone, it is over, it is not known whether he is a friend or not. Running from light to darkness, I don't know if I can stand in front of him today, he is happy in his life today

Sur did not let him forget. The tabla and the song are like a single unit, but he remembers the words

I was surprised to notice. A lie is more expensive than the truth, they want to misunderstand, they themselves are dim. Named in the crowd of dislikes, never knew how to love, argued about their own mistakes. Unable to pay the price of coming others, who have lost the merit today

Even if they are far away, there is no regret, love is one-sided, but if you remember him

The heart turns into darkness, they don't want hatred, they are busy with their interests, today the bank account is empty, I will meet you in the next birth.

Today is another day, touching the breeze Life is going, there is nothing in the world, all the illusions of this world

They have no power to benefit or be good, they are self-centered, egotistical. They have changed unknowingly, the first day and today is not to match

He who tears apart everything, with people for no reason, unable to mingle, mastery of all. The one who despises, hates

That is the peace of cruelty. Many, without expectation, take a step forward and reach out. They are like humanity, their aim is to divide, the melody does not soothe them, pushes them away an age, he silently endured. Walked away for the last time, afraid of losing him. He is a stranger but alone, he can mix with thoughts, anger, anger. Again, the mistake of a few years ago, chasing him, the anger in his eyes.