Silently Screaming Words

I am lost and want to cry,

Sometimes I wish I could fly.

Million miles away from my dream,

When I am alone, I scream.

Hard to believe what I am today,

Just want to go far away.

Want someone to hear my pain,

Mind is full of shit n want to drain.

Day and night,

Happiness and sadness,

Wrong and right,

Dreams or reality,

Proud or guilty,

All are now same for me.

Passion is my depression now,

To be silent is my aggression now.

Losing my senses and sensation now,

To be unknown is my fashion now.

Spend hours thinking what I am,

Find the answer that I am nothing n still I don't give a damn.

Mind is sick n body is weak,

Sometimes I behave like a freak.

Eyes become wet thinking about the people I let down,

Wandering in a different town.

Losing the unshaken, believe in me,

Find the darkness wherever I see.

Frustrated faces look irritating,

A lot of things that I am regretting.

I pretend to be happy but fails,

Life is now like a boat without sails.

I m in an endless storm,

Don't want to live my life like a worm.

Whatever I liked went too far,

Always wanted to shine like a star.

World is running but I am still,

I am ready to pay my bill.

Hollowness in my life I wanted to fill,

This kind of feeling I want to kill.

It might look to some people, whatever I am thinking is just negativity,

It might look to some people insanity,

But I am in mode of self realization,

And one day I will be back and tell them what I am and what’s my satisfaction.