Dear Dad..
Dear Dad..
Today I am nothing to you
Someday I will be
Someday I will be someone I wish to be
Today u hit me with your words
Someday you will shower fake love
I promise I will leave to be someone I wish.
There are times when I expect a lot
Think about and overthink loud
Maybe that's the only lack
Don't worry I promise
I will leave soon
I will no more be your burden
I will no more be a broken heart
I will no more hide my tears and fake a smile.
Today your words hurt
Because I let them hurt me
Because I gave you the right to
Because I thought I love you
Or maybe I thought you do too
So much broken broken
That eyes glitter with tears of pain or hate.
Because I can't accept that it's you
It shouldn't have been you.
I refuse!
But damages are already done.
You have spoken and love is all gone
Tell me why do u have to hurt me
As if all these years were just a forced bond.
Am I not your blood
Now I deserved your sweet words and hug.
But you have blessed me with your anger and adorned me with a broken heart.
Congratulations! Today you have done something I never noticed,
Something I always forget
Something I always forgive.
But I promise it will not be so
At least not any longer now.
I have got to go away
I have got to go away
I have got to go away from you
Unless you feel my absence
Unless you sing me back with sadness
But I promise there's no turning back
Once gone I will forever be gone.
It is so painful, my heart hurts
It's so painful my breaths blocked
It's so painful and this head feels all heavy with the unwanted burdens I carry.
It's so fucking painful when your
blood hurts its very existence.
It's all so painful to just be you.
Today I am nothing to you
Someday I will be
Someday I will be someone I wish to be
Today u hit me with your words
Someday you will shower fake love
I promise I will leave to be someone I wish to be.