Outsider
Outsider
I give you a call “r u there”?
Standing outside the door of your heart
' Coming', I hear the reply…
I wait….
There are territories I cannot chart.
I wait and wait…
As you drag out of her …from the bed
You wash and wipe…as I patiently wait
The marks are all over you… in red.
I quietly wait…I know you will come down
Yes I am sure you will
Time passes
And I find myself waiting still.
Tears start brimming in eyes
As I tend to give you another call
Yes you are attending to something more imp
I can feel...but I dare not cross the wall.
Hey love…you know I am waiting for you
It’s me …donot you recognize
Then why are you taking so late to come
Your priorities are coming to me as a surprise.
And as my tears start flowing down…
Episodes start swirling in front of my eyes
Moments of love and moments so intense
As I remember those passionate goodbyes.
I use to be hurt
To see the bruises of love all over me…
But I knew you loved me …
The truth behind…I didn’t want to see it.
Come what may ...in life
Whatever be the depth of your love for me
The best is reserved for someone else
Your prized possession I can never be.
I know you love me...
I know you care
But in bits and pieces
When others are not there.
Those frantic phone calls
And kisses were stolen from time
Those sweet nothings whispered in ears
Wishing everything would be fine.
I know you love me deeply
Your eyes tell me so…
But one call from that special someone
And I know it is time for me to go.
That is what I am for you…
An outsider who has to stand and wait
I can never be your home
My place is outside…at the gate.
Love for me is everything
As I took you in my fold
Just to let you feel the warmth of my soul
Then why do you leave me standing in cold?
Yes I am an outsider
And it would always be the same
I know I am a loser in all respect
I bet myself in a defeated game.
So it would go like this
Distances will only get wider
Till then…I am at your gate
An outsider…forever outsider.