Mortal Invisibility

You broke my heart

Into small pieces of crystal

Like a mortal invisibility

At the end of your salvation

That pierced through my heart,

Each drop of love dripping

With no pain

But in my tears.

Each drop of blood

Through my eyes

Made me wake up

To the reality in front

From the dream of my past.

 fresh (feeling) rose in my heart

Not for you.

But a feel of guilt

from you,

 a feel of being cheated

by you,

 a feel of being fooled

 by you,

But a feel of hate

Not to you,

To myself.

Yesterday I didn’t know who I was

But one of yours

But Today,

I stand in front of my reflection

Can’t find answers

To answer myself

Who am I without you?

Who was I before you?

And what have I become now?

Why can’t I feel me but pain?

Why does my tears pain?

Why does my heart say

 “I won’t feel hurt as usual, I am tired”

When I want to end this

By the feel                                       

 [meaning is my feeling the pain]

Why can’t I?

Why does my pain say

“you will never get over this sting”

When I want it all over,

My mind says

“when I said it’s enough

You didn’t trust yourself

Now when you want to end

We don’t trust you”

It is just me or the pain

Making me feel betrayed

 by myself?

[How my path changed to the highway to hell

When I thought I was through you?]