Getting My Love Back

 'I am a bloody soldier', I have to report at base after two days, please go with your family to 'safe place' and don't wait for me, I said in a stern voice .

No matter what, I will wait! for you, don't give up on our love so easily, I have faith in god, she replied back.

'Our love ', I smirked a little then uttered, I don't love you, I took care of you due to your brother, he told me to look after you before going .

Moreover I can get as many girls I want on camp, so why should I wait for you? 

Within few seconds a tight slap landed on my face, the pain due to slap was nothing as compared to tears in her eyes, she ran outside crying, my heart want to stop her, but my brain commanded 'stop ' and I couldn't move an inch after that .

Why don't you tell her truth? My comrade asked strolling inside, holding a cigarette .

What should I tell her that my coming back chances are less then 1%, that I am posted in warzone area, no dude I don't want her to wait for me or shed her tears on my death, I answered .

You are sounding like a pessimist now dude, he gave me a glance and then puffed smoke in air .

You already know the situation of that place, moreover if she will get even a hint about this, she would never let me go .So it's better this way, atleast she can move on with her life, I replied back packing my stuff.

Hmmm as you wish, if you need something to clear your head, it's in the last drawer, he said and moved outside .

I don't need alcohol to clear things out and why would I?

I love her, I don't want to forget her, on contrary I want to remember her more and more......

She gave me her hand when I needed it most, when my parents died in an accident and when my old fragile grandma was sick, she taught me all home chores and help me took care of grandma as well.

She was even standing beside me when my grandmother died, she even supported me when I was alone in this strange world .

She was like a ray of hope who healed my wounds with her love and care .

How could I not fell in love with such a girl...

Yes I know I did wrong to break her heart like this, yet it was a difficult choice for me too, to chose my job over her .

It's not easy, but what I can I do it was my father's last words ' You shall become a worthy soldier to protect this place when time comes.'

His words echoed in my ear since childhood to adult .

So I took this tough choice and locked my heart in cage .

My friend was right, she deserves truth, so I wrote a letter to her telling everything, then put it in a small box with some other things .

Next morning I ran over to post - office and handed that box to old post man, writing address on box, I requested post- man to deliver letter after few days .

He asked me about the key of box and with a grin on my face I replied she already have it .

It brought me again to nostalgia, we use to hide our secrets in this box and whenever we feel down we use to open it and share our secret with each other.

After saying goodbye to old man I returned back to my training camp .

Around sharp 6 in morning, heavy footsteps can be heard, everyone was gathered in their uniforms and backpacks . After few instructions everyone marched in bus and took their respective seats .

Before climbing in bus I looked back last time and every corner was reminding me of her, as if they were cursing me for leaving most precious thing behind.

Tears were at the verge of my eyes, but I hold myself up somehow .

It took us few hours to reach the destination, we were assigned to our rooms with a schedule .

After three days of arduous training, we set our foot on war ground .

Our hearts pounded against our rib cages and our neck hairs felt like pins with the terror of it all. 

Berry - red blood was squashing from the wounds of the soldier and some of them were wailing and whimpering in pain.

The scenario was dreadful, with storm of arrows buzzing and fizzing through the sky.

Our cold hands gripped our cold steel swords and we charged towards our enemies, we were battering and beating against our enemies under sunless sky .Our swords were clinking and clashing.

It goes on for almost two weeks, when a halt was put by both sides for giving homage to martyred soldiers.

Our commander has ordered us to stitch our wounds more tightly as the coming days would be more adverse.

His words came true, as on one dark nightcap horde of enemies smashed into us, we were as vulnerable as a child that time .Some of our men were sobbing and shivering with fear.

The septic smell of death hung over the battlefield. There was chaos everywhere, enemies having upper hand were killing our soldiers mercilessly.

Some of us clenched swords in our fist with fury and clashed them with enemies .

However enemies smashed us hard on our open wounds.

With the glimpse of hope, I move forward killing the enemies when a man from behind pierced his sword in my back . 

Jet of blood splashed from my mouth, my feet felt numb, my sword slipped through my hand and I fell down on ground .

The sky was pitch black, as if it was mourning for our loss.

 My eyes were blurry and my heart was flashing her presence in my head till I lost my consciousness....

I could hear some machine sounds and people talking, I opened my eyes slowly allowing them time to adjust to the blinding light coming from the room.

Is this heaven?, my mind commented, but soon I realized I was in hospital.

A doctor came running towards me and scanned my body .After. a check - up he gave me some sedatives to rest . I asked him about my whereabouts and he told me that I was unconcious from past few weeks, I was shocked .Yet he gave me a smile and uttered ' I am glad you are fine', I thanked him in return and he went back.

Later my seniors came to meet me and informed that war was finished, as neighbouring country helped us and thus enemy ran away with their forces .They even told me that I was lucky to be brought to hospital at correct time, I showed my gratitude to them.

It took me a few weeks to fully recover, after that I went back to my hometown .

Reaching their I ran straight to post- office to find old post - men . By seeing me he congratulated me and told me the sad truth that letter can't be delivered, as she had left the place .I took the letter and box back with heavy heart .

I was returning back when he handed me another letter to my name, I asked him about it, he told that the letter arrived before few weeks.

I went straight home dropped my stuff and opened letter, I was in tears after reading it .

The letter was from my love, she still had faith in me and wrote her new address in hope to meet me again.

I quickly packed a bag and next morning I left for the place mentioned on the letter.

 I couldn't find anyone at the place, I enquired neighbours and they informed me that her family left the place few weeks back .

My heart was shattered with the news, still I didn't give up, I started checking nearby areas.

I rented a room in the area and would check all the streets from early morning to late night, till my sore feat wouldn't give up.

It went on like few days, when I discovered a beautiful place in far away 

mountain, the place was so alluring with different types of trees and flowers .

This place reminded me of my old days with her .

My heart felt strong with the aura around and it was enough to relax my heart . So I started visiting the place on daily basis .

It went like that for few days, when on one evening I was lying on grass, my heart sensed a familiar presence, i stood up and look around, but their was no one, I moved forward to leave when I felt my hrartbeat faster .

This time when I looked around, i heard someone humming a song, I felt enchanted with voice and followed it .

Soon I came out of bushes when I saw a beautiful girl picking up flowers, although I couldn't see her clearly as her back is towards me .

Yet somehow I felt a certain warmness in my heart, I was slowly moving forward and with every step my heart was thudding faster and faster .

I stopped few steps back from her, took a deep breath, at that my heart felt like it will come out .

My stomach churned with nervousness and my heart was yelling, she is the one .

I was about to pull her when she move towards me to pick flowers and as our eyes met I could feel surge of adrealine in my veins .

She looked more mature from before with same rosy cheeks yet her shining eyes were looking puffy and dull .

My heart melted in the rhythm of joy and my eyes floodded with tears, i quickly pulled her in my embrace, she didn't pulled me apart as if she was waiting for it too.

We stayed like that for few minutes and then separated back, she stared in my eyes with fury and a crip slap landed on my face .

I know I deserved it, tears in her eyes were screaming of the pain she is going through .

She didn't utter a word instead moved backwards, as if trying to run away . I rapidly grabbed her arm and pulled towards me, she landed on my shoulder, but pushed me apart another second .

Words were not coming from my mouth instead tears were flowing like a river, I fell down on my knees and cried the pain I was holding from the past days .

She looked at me with same innocence and carrassed my head with her slender long fingers .

She helped me stand up and we sat on grass, looking over sunset I confessed my love to her and told her that how hard it was to leave her and not a single second passed by that I didn't missed her .

You are late, I have someone in my life now, i'm so sorry, she replied back.

I felt like my heart was pierced with several thorns.

After few minutes I cleared my throat and with little strength, i uttered I am glad to see you and it is enough for me .

She laughed listening to me and said, you are still same, idiot if I have to find someone why would I leave a letter for you .

I am joking so stop crying now let's head home .

Wait ! you knew I would come, I asked. 

I believed in our love and I knew you were telling lie back then, I was hurt as you hide the truth from me, so I left the place immediately, moreover I knew how important this task is for you . So I let you go, as I had faith in our love .

See this faith brought you back silly, she replied back.

I gave her a smile and pulled her for a hug, it felt like all our broken pieces were fitting back.

It was my story of getting my love back ..