Somebody Like You

Maybe, it’s a blessing in disguise that we don’t talk anymore,

Yet, I’m still as unhappy as I used to be when we used to talk.

I thought I was doing something right,

But the way things have turned out to be, I don’t know anymore.

I couldn’t turn back to look at you in the eyes,

For, my reflection in your glistening eyes would have broken me more than I already was,

Because I didn’t know how to face myself anymore.

I’m incapable of being loved so I thought I was doing something right,

But after the way I could hear you trying to contain your sobs as I walked away, I don’t know anymore.

I wish you had grabbed me by my arm and turned me around to ask me, “Are you sure about all this?”

With the way I feel right now, I’d have said no.

But what could you have done to help me when I didn’t want to be helped by you?

You don’t deserve to invest your time in me, in someone who can’t be rescued.

And I didn’t want to sweep you up with me in this darkness,

You’re too good for this, too good for me.

You were finally happy and I couldn’t have taken it away from you,

But seems like I have, and I’m sorry about that and you might never know that,

But all good things come to an end.

You once said that I bring out the best in you, I’m sorry about the silence that followed right after because I couldn’t get myself to say the same.

You deserve better, better than the lies you might think I made you live in,

Lord knows nothing was a lie between us, and I hope somehow you know that.

I’d rather lose somebody than use somebody like you, so I had to let you go.

I used to think that “If you love somebody then let them go” was very cliché,

But I also thought that I was doing something right when I let you go,

Now, I don’t think so anymore.

I regret this deeply, but I’d rather lose myself than see you lose yourself because of a person like me,

The only person you said you could call your friend.

I’m sorry to take him away from you, I had to.