Comparisons

These overwhelming comparisons I do

They are at the very brim of my cup

And I try to contain them in

But they reach out my grasp and keep overflowing

Pouring over my life like distasteful memories

Drowning me in a river of thorns loaded with disgust

Giving me a reflection of my image getting crushed to dust

So when can I stop this unhealthy obsession

Just wanna suck it up and move on

But it just keeps spiraling into me like an electric sensation

Till it explodes my insides with envy and guilt

Making me hate people, but myself in an even more greater deal

Oh- but it overflows, it drains out my body

It makes my eyes bleed over others' success

And I can't stop- I can't I'm sorry

It keeps winning over me

Trapping me in this disastrous story

Keeps going on and on raging out in floods

(And it never stops it never really does..)