Overthinking

I'm running high on overthinking,

Life imbalance gettin' meh in twisted scenes,

Which cannot even be stabilized by medicines...?

And there are no deep emotions as long as they are;

Feelings I cannot hide appear in front of me,

From the corners of my mind makin' me tremendous with what's going on...

And I don't get it...

Disturbing thoughts messing my head off,

And people inspire my words and go away...?

Alright, so no lookin' back...

Things might not work but I'll take maybe,

Oh, but being lackin' daily;

So I'm capitulating,

Regretting like a sassy baby,

Running high on overthinkin' again,

Like, burning my brain from work?

Like, hurting someone I love?

Like, will it ever really stop?

And I lose my control,

Just like the girl in red,

With my red lipstick that hides the pain and my black dress that wears my fake fineness...

Impulsively impressive,

And I fear I'll end up doing somethin' stupid...

Maybe, maybe so contained to be unbothered in my wrecked nervousness;

Trynna brush off this suffice,

But it gets started again the moment we get an eye contact...