Life Lately

I thought lilacs were prettier than me,

Branches higher than I could ever reach,

It's dark green leaves full of light,

Something that could never resonate with me.

I was jealous of the ivory colored ice crystals in the sky,

Their freedom has no limits.

Sculpted in shapes that alter itself in every eye,

Creating the soul of the life I see around me.

I used to find comfort under cold showers,

It blurred the line between water and tears,

Bringing a sense of familiarity,

Of the darkness that had always been a part of me.

The voices in my head were once all I could hear.

Now, it's the sound of waves crashing on the shore,

The sound of crickets,

Or even nothing at all.

No, I never thought I'd feel this way again,

Where I was once afraid, I now find comfort.

Admitting it I fear, will take it away,

But what is life without risk? 

And so I say...

I like me, for me.